Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Mom...

Ten years ago today, my mom died suddenly of a brain aneurysm. Her name was Diane and she loved me. I wanted to write something eloquent and heartfelt to convey how much she meant to me but it hurts too much just now and the words won’t come.

So instead, I will borrow her words. This is a love letter she wrote to me shortly before her death. Though I cannot seem to find my own voice in this moment, I feel certain that she wouldn’t mind my sharing hers.

I love you too Mom.

Enjoy…

Yours in the quest for bliss,

The Happiness Detective

"Dear E.R.

This is a letter that I should have written you a long time ago because I have felt this way for a very long time.

You are one of my prized joys and have been a real inspiration to me. I've always admired your zest for life, your honesty and your wonderful sense of humor. You are, in so many ways, the person I always wanted to be, but for whatever reason or reasons, stopped myself.

You have so many successes in your life and I know you'll have many more. You have excelled in school, in friendships and have something very special in your life that you have focused on. You are living your dreams. In many ways, you are also living my dreams, & in so doing, you have shown me that I, too can have my dreams come true.

Everything happens for a reason (altho' we may not see it right away). I want you to know that you are doing wonderful things with your life and not to get discouraged. Stay focused; stay happy. Never lose sight of what's important to you.

Please know how proud I am of you and keep following your dreams!

Love Mom"

2 comments:

S├ębastian Hell said...

I might have a bias, but with your recent entries' tone, that last line, 'keep following your dreams', seems like a clear message.

Kristi Angus said...

All my love to you and your Mom. Such a special lady created such a special woman. xo